The beautiful depiction of the Virgin Mary with child and the presence of St. Barbara doing what she always did reading in what looks like a sea of tranquility and peace, for there could be no better place than in the company of the Divine.
For many years to come I imagined myself in the tower waiting for the judgement of my actions to be enforced, still reading, meditating, and imagining a world like those on the pages in which I read and found solace.
I must say life for me still continued to be much the same, imagining how things could be. Then one day I realized thinking doesn’t make it so. I began to embark on writing a book that has taken me on a most fascinating journey. A journey through time and space that came from personal experiences.
One day it just hit me like a ton of bricks, we are experiencing exactly what we need to and sometimes the reasons do not seem clear till we continue to repeat them over and over again. The patterns must be broken in order for the next layer of our life experiences to happen.
We all have “Our Story” which seems to keep us trapped in the illusion of thinking they are important to anyone else but us. The truth of a situation is for no one but ourselves, we are the only one directly effected by the results of our actions. We are led to believe someone will save us, the knight in shining armor we so romantically believe in does not exist. When I accepted this my journey to self discovery became more dark and difficult than ever before.
The expression “It’s darkest before the dawn” holds great truth in it’s meaning. We no longer live in the dark ages, yet we behave as if we still do. We are smarter, and live longer than ever before, yet we are no further ahead in our ability to transform our lives into what we want it to be.
Life is something we do between birth and death, and the experiences are uniquely ours. Sometimes another persons life can be an example of what can be achieved even through the most difficult of times, and it becomes a beacon of hope when all seems unbearable. Then there are those stories that we think only happen to other people and we become more despaired.
So what to do where to turn? The most important lesson for me was not to take myself so seriously and stop pretending I was something I wasn’t, “the reincarnation of St. Barbara”
that in itself was setting me up for failure. But the one thing I know the best story you could read is the one about you. The past is only as powerful as you allow it to be, so sit down write your story, look for the messages hidden between the lines, laugh, cry, but most of all embrace yourself go deep and find that lost child waiting to be loved, honored and respected by the only person that matters, you!
Love and Light
My book will be coming soon “The Treason Within”
Thank you to all my followers, you inspire me and have helped me through this difficult time.
My intention is to share words with you that can help in trying to figure it all out. The key ingredient is merely accepting what is going on around you and realize the only thing we can control is out thoughts about it.
Happy, Healthy, New Year and remember sharing is caring if you see someone suffering act in a way that you would like someone to treat you, for we never know what the future holds.
Peace and love to you all!!!!